christmass

The one thing i want for christmass is someone i can talk to and just get things off my chest i feel like everyone has a bestfriend and i'm the person who is always left out. like a third wheel and i don't like that feeling,

let me just hope!!

I'M DONE

i fell like shit all i do is try to plz you but i'm never what you really want and i never will be. But you know i'v just realised that i don't need to make sure your ok i fell the need not to give a dam. Coz all you do is bring me down when you say you hate someone or you are pissed off i will be the first person to ask if your ok and do you need anything, but no your not happy with that you want someone else to ask you well i'm sorry i care so much, from now on if you say something about your feeling i will not care.
The one thing that really pisses me off is that i did all that so you would like me, but if you don't like me for who i am then i give up on you!
the hard think will be to forget you coz we have the same friends. Well i'm just going to try my best and not get in the way off your friendship with them.
i hate that i care for my friends why can't i be mean and not give a crap. the one thing that will be the same is i will not be rude to you or your friends. It's like you never even took notice off me, i always hear that you are going out with your friends but never ask me. The last thing i want to say is all you do with your time is talk about how sad you are and why you have no friends and no one loves you well you no what I WAS A GOOD FRIENND! you just forgot about me as i'm not as smart as your other friends, when i used to see you i would always have a smile on my face knowing that you was my friend but it all changed when you started to hang around with that person. I guess being in love with someone does changed you!


I DON'T CARE ANYMORE THIS IS MY LAST GOODBYE.

couldn't think of a title:
I hate the bloodly snow!! for the past like two day all i have talked about is this snow, Well today was no diffrent so i had to go to the shops for my mom and all i can say was it took me like an hour! i keep on falling over on the floor because of the stupid ICE like did my area not no it was going to snow, i'm so pissed off and i really hurt my ass and my back.

ok from now on i will never TALK about the snow again!!
i fell like i need to do something spontaneous with my life, i have just realised that life is to short and we have to live each day as it will be our last. there are so many things that i want to do before i die.

Stupid Snow!!

ok ok i have to tell you this: right you might know this but you might NOT!!!!!
robert pattinson and lucie jones are going out!!!!!!! robert has a cruch on luice from the x factor i was so shocked to hear this, roberts sister got them together at first luice said no but robert keep on asking i think they do look good together coz luice looks like kristen stewart. but yh that is all now bac to what i was going to say!


Well today was crap, i was ready to go out with you lot and it would not stop snowing!!! like last night i was well excited BUT THEN IT DID NOT STOP!! it ended up in a blizzerd i could not see out my window, then i was thinking well ok it will be all good in the moring but NO it was still snowing i was pissed coz i did not get to go out, and i did not get to see any of you i was so upset:(
well i hope to see you all very soon!!!! hope you all had a really good day and hope you were cold lol not really.
now off to find soming to do might watch this really good but old film called freedom writers form 2007.

bring me to life

I tell you this week has been messed up, for some reason it seems my mom has no time for me like i don't mind coz i know she is working really hard but like i feel left out, my brother is at uni so when he comes home my mom is all over him and spends all her spear time with him and i'm like what about me! me and my family don't really have a special bond that some people have i mean me and my brother can't have a conv we always have a fight then me and my mom have fight, i wonder what it is like to be in a tight family unit have that lovely family bond.

well anywho, i went shopping yesterday and i saw these really nice shoes and i really want them, i swear there are many clothes that i really want but can't buy them I WANT A JOB!!!! well going bac to my life at home some times i wish i could be in the home alone films they look so fun LOL.X

nothing last for ever

lately i'v been looking over some photos of me and my family and realised that life is going way to fast it seems like yesterday i was in primary school, with the people that meant so much to me.
in primary school i used to be with only one person all the time thinking we would be friends for ever, we were best friends and even our moms were best friends, we did everything together every weekend i would be at her house or she would be at mine, we even go to the same school now same formclass but we don't speak we haven't spoke in 3years, it is just like everything changed when your in primary school or just a lot younger you never think of the futuer or past but always the presant which i loved because all i seem to do now is think about what could off happend and what would of happend if i said yes what would my life be like now, would i be shy,dumb and lonely, to be honest i don't mind being lonely i like my own space.
and just when i sort of like were i am in life it has to change all over again going to another school, having to make new friends which i can't do and having to figure out who i am again. Then in 2 years it changes all over AGAIN. which just sucks why can't life just come to a stop or slow down.

What is life???

what is life?
i'v been thinking lately why are we here what is our purpose on earth,

is living on earth a game and heaven and hell really what life is about.

i believe in God and Jesus but why do we have people who kill,rape and steal. if god wanted a peaceful place why do we have people like that and at times i really do not understand why inocent people die!

And one thing i never got who made God and how did we end up on earth. why did people believe in Jesus and believe that he was son of God, why did Jesus have to die so we could live.

and as i'm saying this is there even a God,heaven or hell. and if God had a vocation for all off us why do we need to learn about other things in life why not just take us to what we are going to become. and if mary did not have to have sex with someone to get pregnant why do we. we all say that we follow in the footsteps of Jesus but how do we truely know what the footsteps where that Jesus took.

gosh i really don't understand what i just said, it just cameout.

well night night people=) xoxoxox

christmass party

righty oh guyzz-i just need to know what is happing on the 18 dec, coz my mother said you can still sleep over if you want and what are we doing on the friday and saturday coz i really don't know, friday i will have a free yard till 5-6 o'clock and on saturday from 11-7 o'clock. and i'm not sure what to do so tell me!!! yh not sure what else to say.

fatty

i feel soo fat i swear, i hate coming home in the afternoon coz all i do is eat and eat junk food which is not good for me. i work out but what is the point, coz i burn fat then put in bac on by eating crap and i can't stop.


i really can't believe what i'm about to say get ready.......I THINK RUSSELL BRAND IS QUITE HOT! only coz i saw him on loose women today and he looked really nice.

X factor

OMGOSH WELL I'M SOOOO HAPPY STACEY IS IN THE FINAL YAY!!!!
so me and my fam sat down to watch the factor as we do every weekend and i can not tell you how sceard i was when it was stacey and danly left but the way i jumped up from the chair and rolled about on the floor shoutting yes yesyes thank the lord, and my brothers girlfriend was just looking at me i forgot she was there but yeah i was soooo happy!:)

and lady gaga is soo weird i swear i really like some of her songs but she is just mad.
now im going to revies for the re mock tomorrow another week of tests GOSH.

geography

gosh i swear people need to get my name right jezzz, like someone called me louise martin-newman, come on!!!!

well i have not blogged in soooo long :( revision is a killer,
so today i had maths and geography which was not that bad:) well geogoraphy was just stupid i spent all off 2hours revising with robe:) and of what we did do it did not come up on the test i was like NOOOOOOO! well that is all for now have to do some sicence work byebye

just realsied i fitin!!!!

i feel i no longer need to cry myself to sleep

with freinds like you i feel free and not sceard

i still have my ups and downs

but you have been there for me

i don't need to be someone else

i can just be me and you like that

i just hope we will be friends forever

i will never forget YOU

sicence

before i start i just want to say sorry to jezelle for blogging ... blogging is everthing to me

ok so i was in sicence and we had no teacher coz she was on a trip:) and so not nameing name. someone was stripping in the class room and when i mean stripping i mean stripping lol the shirt was coming of skirt was also coming off, it was just toooo much for me BUT THEN mr.jonhson walked in and he went bright RED it was too funny so after that the whole class started to sing maroon 5 who are amazing, we sang this love!
i swear sicence is always jokes i just love it, but we also did do some revision:)

and still does not no wat to wear tomorrow........well mabey i will wear legging,conv and big jumper..

jezelle ;)

all i have to say is jezelle your MAD! so today i was in btec with the fam:) and we got talking about farting i know a werid subject but jezelle came up with it coz of my ipod she was walking around the classroom making farting sounds but no one heard them HAHAH but anyway she got talking about do we ever fanny fart and i was like are you mad and just started to laugh and so did lorraine it was the crazyest thing i have ever heard you say jezelle. THEN i was doing my work but also looking at beautiful pic's of my boyfriend taylor lautner and jezelle was having a go at me gosh wat did i do to you LOL good times bye bye blogger off to twitterland xx

.......

......well today was strange woke up in the morring and was home alone thought to my self wtf! then the fone rang and i picked up but no one was there
then i was doing some goegraphy work :( which i hate. fone rings agian and this time it was mother saying she went for a little run which she realied was 3 hours came home then went to westfeild lost mother coz i was walking off the the vans store:) then she found me and gave me the look.
when we got home i realiesd that i back door was OPEN not good but as i now live in a REALLY REALLY quite area it was ok, still mother then shouted at me, she then said i can't go out with you anymore(sad) you have to bring a friend or i will, I WAS LIKE UGH! the only reason i went was because you said we were not spending alot of time together and now you don't want to spend anytime together.....MAKE YOUR MINE UP!!!!!

But on the other hand she did do my hair:)

SHOCKING NEWS

Guyz guyz mother said the most weirrdest thing ever get ready...... I LOOK LIKE KRISTEN STEWART, i was so shocked then she goes i will dye your hair like hers this was too much for me i just started laughing so much and she was just looking at me.

what do you think coz i don't think i look like her.

NEW MOON

OMG OMG OMG OMG

watched new moon yesterday with the btec fam subtract robee:(

well anyways it was the most amazing thing ever.

everyone in the cinema was screaming when JACOB <3 came on he is sooooo :) words can not explain how HOT he is, and when R-PATZ came onn they were not impressed LOL and so many children fell over just to funny;) and pooopoooo pantzz AHAHAAH.

I'm i invisible

jezelle i had one off these phone convo's today;

ME:hello

THEM: hi is luke there

ME:no he's out

THEM: ok, who's this

ME:louise

THEM: who

ME: louise, luke's sista

THEM: oh i thought your name was summer

ME: no it's been louise for about 15years

THEM: oh well can i speek to your mum

ME:ok bye

THEM:...............

WHAT THE HELL MAN! get your facts right. and all i can say is.(SUMMER)!!!!!

sometimes all you can do is laugh

to keep

yourself from crying.

jezelle you better not have seen this pic, it is sooo beautiful :) just can't wait for new moon ppl. robert pattinson for you jezelle and for me and robeymay=taylor lautner he is just sooooo beaufitul xxx

YAY! :)

Guys i did it i PASSED!!!!, i'm going to be quick because i'm still in study support abd that guys is just about to come bac LOL anywho, he was asking how the printer works like don't you know. gosh, well i'm going to go now bac to the work xx and jezelle i have to tell you something and you as well lorraine!!!!!

OMG!!!!!

GUYS i'm going to do my hair again but more like haley from paramore, it will be more redder what you think, should i or not.


but on the other hand, some sad news, when i was walking home to upton park i saw this old lady getting beat up by some young fool, i was shocked at this coz how can someone do that to an oldder person, just shamefull. and i felt so sick and helpless, i didn't even have my phone on me and no one was helping her they were just shouting at the boy and saying get off her! i mean come on people what is that going to do you need to stand up to these fools. but then it gets even more shocking, i was at this point just feeling so sick i had to leave but as i was walking away i saw this police man and i went up to him and said someone is getting muged and this other teen boy over heard me and ran over to the lady and he beat the crap out of the other boy, but in the end the old lady was going to be fine she was taken to hospital and the boy who was beating her up was taken away by the police so in the end all was ok but i still can't believe some people nowdays.

community channel

i just watched community channel on youtube because jezelle kept on talking about it like it was the best thing in the world and people it is just hilarious :) i'v only watch two but the best one was uncomfortale love sences.
i know i'm late....JIZZ

green street

don't you just hate it when ppl drop litter on the floor and there is a bin about 1cm away wat is wrong with ppl i swear just drity i wounder what their houses look like

anywho,let me tell you what happend as i was coming home at upton park station, my oyster card was not working so i had to go see the guy that works there and he did not care he was just shouting at this lady that jumped the gate, but then she spits at him and it landed on my shoe!!!! can you believe i was so pissed and was "like do you have no manners" and then she just looked at me then ran away, at this point i'm still have not got my card working so i jumped the gate was the most funn i'v ever had lol

fireworks

HAPPY FIREWORKS NIGHT PEOPLE,

yeah so anyway today i waas on my way home on the train then this foolish boy comes on and lights a firework on the train and it was so bloodly close to hitting me!!!!

then i was coming out of the station and there was police everywhere and i was thinking what the hell happend. then i rememberd that on the train station there was a big black bag on the floor so i think the police were checking it out.

then as always i was home alone till 7:00 then as soon as my mother walked in she said what do you want for dinner then i said nothing and she was like "WHY DON'T YOU EAT ANYMORE" and i was like " im not hungry and i don't want anything to eat" then she said "go on the weighing scales and let me see how much you weight" WHAT THE HELL JUST BECAUSE IM NOT HUNGRY YOU THINK I'M ANOREXIC!!!!!! bye bye bloggers xx

:)

Today i came across this little message:
never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about,
and i love it coz it is so true, if you love someone or want to do something and you can't stop thinking about why should you give up. even if other people say that you will never reach your goal don't believe them coz there not you and if you really want something go and get it.
YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOUR SELF AND NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM!!!!

WHY SAY YOU LOVE ME WHEN YOU DON'T

F@$K F@$K GOSH GOSH GOSH...............................!:( some ppl e.g(FATHER) really PISS me off what have i done in this world to have a dad who is a complete ass hole who only cares for his two childern with second wife and oldest son from the first marrage, WHAT THE HELL IM I!!! i don't care that you don't get me anything i don't want anything i just want you to be a father to me.... iam that horrible to be around iam i a pain in the back side i did not ask you to be my father you just are so deal with it!!!!!

ALPHA DOG

today im bored out off my mind, and i feel so fat coz i ate so much :( But i watched this really old film called alpha dog with justin timberlake (HOT) :) and yeahh is it a good film all about sex and drugs and you know the rest. but the ending is soooo sad i really hate the ending of this film just how can they make a film like this GOSH!!!!!! but that is all might be bac later......bye for now

my house

hello, today was good and bad day well let me tell you why so, today i had to go skl in the half term (snm)then the stupid teacher miss fattington(think i spelt it right robemay) did not even show up so i traveled all the way from my endzz to go skl and she was not there piss take!!! i swear my mother was so pissed of as well was shouting F@$K all down the phone my ear was bleeding, but then the whole crew came over which was just jokes we opend the gate to the dead spirts jezelle your to funny screaming all over the place, BUT MY SPARKLY GAY FILIPNO SISTER DID NOT COME, BUT I LET HER OFF COZ SHE WAS WITH MOM SO ALL GOOD......:)
P.S thanks for coming guyz hope you had fun and got home safe xoxoxox

over fill of anger

i know my title does not make sense but nether does my life, today was just a really werried day, spent most off it thinking about how good life would be if i was not here coz lately everyone is shouting at me for no reason and im fedup plus i feel so ugly and fat. and im full of anger and just want to scream and shout to the world...................wish i could turn bac time! :(., bye for now

get a room!!!!!

do man have no pride, gosh: i was on the bus sitting next to this old guy and he just started to touch him self down there (you noe) and i was like ugh and i moved away and setnext to someone else, and there was this little girl and she was like mom what is that man dooing and the mom looked and slaped the man in the face and was like do men have no pride. just nasty!!!!!!
and robemay memeber that ladybird we saw in the class it was on my hair all the way home.....AHAHAHA (sad)

worst week in my life

tell you what i think im done with life, i mean skool is a killer.
this is how my life changed for the week:
monday-it was at lunch i was minding my own business in the lunch line and i was getting lonely so i went to speak to jezelle in the line and the lunch lady was shouting at me, and i was like what who are you shouting at me or a tuna brick, she was all like move and i was like no im not in the way and so on.
tuesday- as some know i live far away so i have to get the train home and on this night i had to stay at skool for study support, so as i was just getting on the train the driver said this is now a train only to barking so i had to get off then i got the second train and i took me 2hours to get home i was so p-off and i really needed to go bathroom.
wednesday-going to skool in the morring and nearly got runover by an old man on a bike.
so as you can see this week is soo not working for me but there is more.
thusday-btec and im sure my teacher hates me but im not sure why, she always passes jezelle and lorraine's work but never my work and it is really starting to piss me off.
and the last day friday-now i know its not friday yet but i know what is coming, hpv injections and that means pain,pain and more pain which i'm not looking forword to. so as you can see my life at moment suck's.

but in a different light in btec jezelle, lorraine and i have made a new name LL COOL J we are just so live, and i saw our boyfriend jet li he is soooooo beautiful, well i'm off now speak soon.

family portrait

what a day, gosh today i feel so P-OFF aint got a clue why, i think it is coz my STUPID FAT FAT FAT BTEC TEACHER DOES NOT KNOW ANYTHING!!!!!!!!

she always picks on me, "do this" "do that" "ask your friends for help" i mean your the teacher you should help me, not my freinds.!!!!
and i don't understand why older people say, the best part of your life is at skool, COME ON DO THEY KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO GO TO A 21st CENTURY SKOOL!!!!!!!!

BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, I DID HAVE A GOOD TIME IN BTEC WITH MY MAMA, GRAMA. (IN SIDE JOKE) PRINTING OUT TWILIGHT PHOTOS ON THE SLY, WAS GREAT!

miss price is to funny

ok so right now im sitting in btec trying to do some work but it anit working, all i keep on doing is looking at what my teacher is wearing i mean come on why wear the same colour dress,shoes and leggings....she just does not pull it off!! well have to go now she is coming to eat meee

jeanellis 16th dayout

sorry i have not been blogging, have been toooo sleeply with stupid skool work. ANYWHO yesterday i went westend with jeanelli,roxanne,lorraine,Katherine and Kathleen it was great fun man! so we went to chinatown,Trafalgar and st.james park and play cards and sang song longday.
and im no longer a Purikuri vrgin wahoa (photobooth).

doctors suck

so here we go, i just got back from the doctors and they gave me the sadest news ever, I HAVE GOT ASTHMA............): SAD TIMES. THAT MEANS I CANT RUN WHICH I LOVE TO DO AND WHEN I SLEEP I HAVE TO SIT UP WHICH IS SO UNCOMFORTABLE. I HAVE A LITTLE PUMP SO IF I GET OUT OF BREATH I HAVE TO USE IT. THATS IT SEE YOU LATER.

itunes sucks

OK SO I AM SO ANGERY RIGHT NOW, NOTHING IS WORKING MY IPOD HAS NO MUSIC MY ITUNES IS NO LETTING ME REGISTER MY IPOD AND NOW I CANT EVEN GET MY BTEC HOMEWORK UP ON MY COMPURTER!!!!!!! AND I JUST NEEDED TO BLOG MY LITTLE HEART OUT. WELL NO IM GOING TO TRY AND SLEEP LORD HELP ME.

btec study support!!!!!

were do i begin, so today is thursday and that means study support!!!!!!
i have to go im targeted. so anyway i was in class with Lorraine and jezelle and we were just doing our work and then it happened........A GIRL WITH BO CAME AND SAT NEXT TO ME!. like ok im not rude or anything but OMG. It was sad because she had no clue, I really wanted to tell her but i did not know her so it would just be tooo sad.
well im off to do some school work.

the start of something new

WELL HELLO, this is my very first bolg(not), well you see i have made one blog but just forgot to use it(:
so now iam going to stick to this one promise and im not liying LOL
just give me time coz school is very important........LOL
so im off now and will be back tomorrow bye.