christmass

The one thing i want for christmass is someone i can talk to and just get things off my chest i feel like everyone has a bestfriend and i'm the person who is always left out. like a third wheel and i don't like that feeling,

let me just hope!!

I'M DONE

i fell like shit all i do is try to plz you but i'm never what you really want and i never will be. But you know i'v just realised that i don't need to make sure your ok i fell the need not to give a dam. Coz all you do is bring me down when you say you hate someone or you are pissed off i will be the first person to ask if your ok and do you need anything, but no your not happy with that you want someone else to ask you well i'm sorry i care so much, from now on if you say something about your feeling i will not care.
The one thing that really pisses me off is that i did all that so you would like me, but if you don't like me for who i am then i give up on you!
the hard think will be to forget you coz we have the same friends. Well i'm just going to try my best and not get in the way off your friendship with them.
i hate that i care for my friends why can't i be mean and not give a crap. the one thing that will be the same is i will not be rude to you or your friends. It's like you never even took notice off me, i always hear that you are going out with your friends but never ask me. The last thing i want to say is all you do with your time is talk about how sad you are and why you have no friends and no one loves you well you no what I WAS A GOOD FRIENND! you just forgot about me as i'm not as smart as your other friends, when i used to see you i would always have a smile on my face knowing that you was my friend but it all changed when you started to hang around with that person. I guess being in love with someone does changed you!


I DON'T CARE ANYMORE THIS IS MY LAST GOODBYE.

couldn't think of a title:
I hate the bloodly snow!! for the past like two day all i have talked about is this snow, Well today was no diffrent so i had to go to the shops for my mom and all i can say was it took me like an hour! i keep on falling over on the floor because of the stupid ICE like did my area not no it was going to snow, i'm so pissed off and i really hurt my ass and my back.

ok from now on i will never TALK about the snow again!!
i fell like i need to do something spontaneous with my life, i have just realised that life is to short and we have to live each day as it will be our last. there are so many things that i want to do before i die.

Stupid Snow!!

ok ok i have to tell you this: right you might know this but you might NOT!!!!!
robert pattinson and lucie jones are going out!!!!!!! robert has a cruch on luice from the x factor i was so shocked to hear this, roberts sister got them together at first luice said no but robert keep on asking i think they do look good together coz luice looks like kristen stewart. but yh that is all now bac to what i was going to say!


Well today was crap, i was ready to go out with you lot and it would not stop snowing!!! like last night i was well excited BUT THEN IT DID NOT STOP!! it ended up in a blizzerd i could not see out my window, then i was thinking well ok it will be all good in the moring but NO it was still snowing i was pissed coz i did not get to go out, and i did not get to see any of you i was so upset:(
well i hope to see you all very soon!!!! hope you all had a really good day and hope you were cold lol not really.
now off to find soming to do might watch this really good but old film called freedom writers form 2007.

bring me to life

I tell you this week has been messed up, for some reason it seems my mom has no time for me like i don't mind coz i know she is working really hard but like i feel left out, my brother is at uni so when he comes home my mom is all over him and spends all her spear time with him and i'm like what about me! me and my family don't really have a special bond that some people have i mean me and my brother can't have a conv we always have a fight then me and my mom have fight, i wonder what it is like to be in a tight family unit have that lovely family bond.

well anywho, i went shopping yesterday and i saw these really nice shoes and i really want them, i swear there are many clothes that i really want but can't buy them I WANT A JOB!!!! well going bac to my life at home some times i wish i could be in the home alone films they look so fun LOL.X

nothing last for ever

lately i'v been looking over some photos of me and my family and realised that life is going way to fast it seems like yesterday i was in primary school, with the people that meant so much to me.
in primary school i used to be with only one person all the time thinking we would be friends for ever, we were best friends and even our moms were best friends, we did everything together every weekend i would be at her house or she would be at mine, we even go to the same school now same formclass but we don't speak we haven't spoke in 3years, it is just like everything changed when your in primary school or just a lot younger you never think of the futuer or past but always the presant which i loved because all i seem to do now is think about what could off happend and what would of happend if i said yes what would my life be like now, would i be shy,dumb and lonely, to be honest i don't mind being lonely i like my own space.
and just when i sort of like were i am in life it has to change all over again going to another school, having to make new friends which i can't do and having to figure out who i am again. Then in 2 years it changes all over AGAIN. which just sucks why can't life just come to a stop or slow down.

What is life???

what is life?
i'v been thinking lately why are we here what is our purpose on earth,

is living on earth a game and heaven and hell really what life is about.

i believe in God and Jesus but why do we have people who kill,rape and steal. if god wanted a peaceful place why do we have people like that and at times i really do not understand why inocent people die!

And one thing i never got who made God and how did we end up on earth. why did people believe in Jesus and believe that he was son of God, why did Jesus have to die so we could live.

and as i'm saying this is there even a God,heaven or hell. and if God had a vocation for all off us why do we need to learn about other things in life why not just take us to what we are going to become. and if mary did not have to have sex with someone to get pregnant why do we. we all say that we follow in the footsteps of Jesus but how do we truely know what the footsteps where that Jesus took.

gosh i really don't understand what i just said, it just cameout.

well night night people=) xoxoxox

christmass party

righty oh guyzz-i just need to know what is happing on the 18 dec, coz my mother said you can still sleep over if you want and what are we doing on the friday and saturday coz i really don't know, friday i will have a free yard till 5-6 o'clock and on saturday from 11-7 o'clock. and i'm not sure what to do so tell me!!! yh not sure what else to say.

fatty

i feel soo fat i swear, i hate coming home in the afternoon coz all i do is eat and eat junk food which is not good for me. i work out but what is the point, coz i burn fat then put in bac on by eating crap and i can't stop.


i really can't believe what i'm about to say get ready.......I THINK RUSSELL BRAND IS QUITE HOT! only coz i saw him on loose women today and he looked really nice.

X factor

OMGOSH WELL I'M SOOOO HAPPY STACEY IS IN THE FINAL YAY!!!!
so me and my fam sat down to watch the factor as we do every weekend and i can not tell you how sceard i was when it was stacey and danly left but the way i jumped up from the chair and rolled about on the floor shoutting yes yesyes thank the lord, and my brothers girlfriend was just looking at me i forgot she was there but yeah i was soooo happy!:)

and lady gaga is soo weird i swear i really like some of her songs but she is just mad.
now im going to revies for the re mock tomorrow another week of tests GOSH.

geography

gosh i swear people need to get my name right jezzz, like someone called me louise martin-newman, come on!!!!

well i have not blogged in soooo long :( revision is a killer,
so today i had maths and geography which was not that bad:) well geogoraphy was just stupid i spent all off 2hours revising with robe:) and of what we did do it did not come up on the test i was like NOOOOOOO! well that is all for now have to do some sicence work byebye